Well i am here again to make myself feel better.
I don have anyone to talk to so i am talking to myself again.
I am scared. Afraid that i will lose her.
People says that girlfriend tends to run away during NS.
I can see she is trying to prevent it.
But i am afraid. Uni life will change everything.
I wanna prevent it too. I spend as much time as i can with her. Saturdays Sundays. Everyday if possible. But i am still afraid, that i cant capture her heart. I am always assured by her. But also crushed by her. I have no one to help me. No one to talk to. Where is that Jeff Kwek when i need him. I cant always sms him. I wanna meet up with him. But then i will spend the time with her.
I think i am not spending enough time with her. She told me i must meet up with my friends. But when i do, she crushes me. So i am not sure if it's my time management? Or is it my life that is wrong. 7th Aug is nxt week. Meiling planned a meeting. But what do u think? Sld i go? I don wanna go. But if i tell her. She will ask me to go.
We are stuck at this "Stage" for very long already. As i talked to Meal IC that day, I am very afraid that what he said will come true. We are not moving on. When something new comes up in her life, things might change, i might not catch up, and i will be out of the game. I though i will be strong enough. But i know deep inside, i am weak... Weak like no one can ever imagine.
Somebody tell me what to do. And Pls i need it to be the right way cause i cant lose someone so dear to me. Thank you, i need a pat on my back.
