Not feeling very good now... BAD mood... Nv had this kind of feeling... I know i think too much... I know this is very irritating... i don know y am i posting this... I don see the point of writing this... But... I just wanna 'HMPH' "AH" Do something about it... But i cant, i really cant, Not at this moment, not at this kind of situation, not at this point of time... I cant make mistakes, there is no turning back, there is no place to save game or load game... This is not a game where there is a lot of time for u to gain experince in... No matter how many others u can get for urself, the Very first that u really wanna go after, that u did go after will be crafted deeply very deeply in a place where it is not able to br replaced...
I have recently be crafted, i now know the feeling... No wonder couples are always troubled as they can nv have enough of each other's accompany... One day of silence will hurt more than a thousand knifes, never had a thousand knifes b4? Nvm, it hurts more than ur last day in Primary school, it hurts more that having ur best friend going aboard and nv coming back, it hurts More, that not having money in ur pocket, shoes, underwear or anywhere... Now i understand why ppl cant get over a relationship that is onli one month old? One year old? 2 years? i cant even get over it for 1 day... That one day, i was happy... That one day, i wasn't trying to be crazy or trying to make myself look happy, make myself feel lucky... I was truley happy, honestly feeling lucky... Thinking how could something like this happen to me? I have the feeling of "Chance" Of 'HOPE'
I couldn't believe it... I know i have chance... But i just don believe it... Is it true? Is whatever happening now what i think it means? I asked around... Here there everywhere... Does this this this means that that that? No matter how positive the answer might be... It doesn't seem to calm me dwn... It seems like, "really meh... Oh... Izzit?" My brain says it true, but deep inside... My heart is telling my ears to onli hear the truth from that onli one, telling my eyes to see that onli one... and my brain to think of that onli one... In sciene, Brain controls everything... In life, Heart controls everything... The way to be alive, to have a brain... The will to keep alive, to have a heart...
So many things in my heart, unable to express... A forgein language that no mouth speaks of... The onli way is somewhere still faraway from... I was happy yesterday that i got this very new blogskin... This is done by my ex-workmate... MeiYi, her blog is also very nice, the link is over There... Click urself... I was happy yesterday, wanted to share with everyone... Let everyone knows, but the first person i wanna tell, is actually, facing problems which cant be told of. it's strange as it is not even something that is supposed to do such a great impact on me... What is this feeling inside me that is making me feel ' Wats wrong? How sld i solve the problem? What has happen? When will i know? What sld i do when i know of the truth?'
Guys wanna know all the truth... All... So they can help... We are supposed to help... Arn't we?
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