We are from different world?
Ouch....

Is that supposed to mean something?

I hold on.
Knowing that i cant change the world we had before.
I will surely make the world ahead of us the best of all.

10:55 AM;

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11:40 PM;

Well i am here again to make myself feel better.

I don have anyone to talk to so i am talking to myself again.


I am scared. Afraid that i will lose her.
People says that girlfriend tends to run away during NS.
I can see she is trying to prevent it.
But i am afraid. Uni life will change everything.

I wanna prevent it too. I spend as much time as i can with her. Saturdays Sundays. Everyday if possible. But i am still afraid, that i cant capture her heart. I am always assured by her. But also crushed by her. I have no one to help me. No one to talk to. Where is that Jeff Kwek when i need him. I cant always sms him. I wanna meet up with him. But then i will spend the time with her.

I think i am not spending enough time with her. She told me i must meet up with my friends. But when i do, she crushes me. So i am not sure if it's my time management? Or is it my life that is wrong. 7th Aug is nxt week. Meiling planned a meeting. But what do u think? Sld i go? I don wanna go. But if i tell her. She will ask me to go.

We are stuck at this "Stage" for very long already. As i talked to Meal IC that day, I am very afraid that what he said will come true. We are not moving on. When something new comes up in her life, things might change, i might not catch up, and i will be out of the game. I though i will be strong enough. But i know deep inside, i am weak... Weak like no one can ever imagine.


Somebody tell me what to do. And Pls i need it to be the right way cause i cant lose someone so dear to me. Thank you, i need a pat on my back.

11:40 PM;

I don know what to do...


Katy Perry Hot 'N Cold

What Do You Want From Me - Adam Lambert


Thats what i feeling man...
I doing everything i can.
Everything i can already.
Everything i do
Everything is wrong.

I sld do nothing?
Say nothing.
Have nothing.
Be nothing.

I am nobody.

8:13 PM;

I don know why...

Why?

Is it my fault?

But i didnt know...

Why am i always not knowing anything...




I don know why...

Why am i treated like that...

I feel like i am not good enough...

No matter how much assurance there is...

It is always gone.

So much that the assurance... No longer...





I am not good enough... Never have been

11:54 PM;

Sometimes...

Its me... I think its just me... Must i really do it?
Should i be not that nice?

Fucking pussy guy i am...

11:17 PM;

Stay the FUCK away from Her! BASTARD!

5:37 PM;

{PROFILE}




Desmond Lim Siong Lin
19 years old
Astrological Sign: Scorpio
Hobbies and Interests: BaDmInToN, GaMiNg .. Actually... THats all
Favorite Music: MoHeCaNs, sAmMi...


I am very talkative...
Very friendy...
But not very good at girls... Thats the worst thing...


I like badminton a lot.
Started learning from my brother's father since K1... Even though i still sux at it... i sux in a lot of thing...


Well i also like ART cause my sister's Mother taugh me art since i was very young too...But i also sux in art... CAuse i draw very very very slow Haiz...


I love fishes...Got quite a lot of fishes at home...A big one (gone when he was 18years old) and some small small ones...HahA... Nothing More abt me liao...

One more thing...
I am a very boring person...Sniff Sniff...

{WISHLIST}
-Design Shoe Cover
-More and More Shorts!!
-Be with that little someone
-Able to pass my course now
-Have my hair grown back ASAP
-TATTOO My Chinese Name
-Sleep Well

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Meiyi (:
Fishy (:
Von (:
Carmen (:
Desmond (:
Lina (:
Daniel (:
Fiona (:
LeeChoon (:
Veron (:
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MeiLing (:
Juan (:
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Designer: ♥Scandal.
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