{Friday, December 06, 2013}

Today i feel empty... I can feel that my Dear Dear is totally disappointed in me.

I know deep inside her, she has given up on me...
I don't wanna lose her...

Haix... What should i do... I acted as if nothing has ever happened. I though this would be the best way to settle the problem... I am wrong......

I get cold msges, so cold that i think there is totally no emotions in it. She told me that she can only hide in a corner and cry... Me too... 

We are meeting this saturday, but i know this meeting is going to be a painful one. Both of us is going to be hurt cause she is going to bring up the issue. Maybe my mindset is wrong. Actually i know my mindset is wrong. but it is the best to my opinion. Pretending that there is no problem at all. Big problem into small, small into nothing. Isnt that the best way? to manage a relationship. Having problem everyday is going to make our memories full of unhappiness. 

I just want a happy relationship. Everything i do is just to keep the both of us happy. And i can see that i am not doing a very good job. With my dear dear unhappy... i feel even worse... 

While i was walking home, or u can say everytime i walk home. I think... what if i got knock over by a car now... Will anyone be sad? like really really sad? because the last words they said to me was not something nice? because the time we spent together could have been better? With this thoughts in mind, i try to always keep myself happy. Keep the people around me happy. Deep in my heart... i feel like a idiot...

I am a idiot... And i have to only keep it in my heart... I love u dear dear... Its not ur fault that any of this happens... I wanna let u know that i really love u. But the least u could do is have faith in urself. No matter what, i still belong to u... NO MATTER WHAT. i have already chosen u... We have been through this alot of times already... I dont want us to fall apart... i do get sad too... And when i am sad, i too have no one to go to... i can only keep working and working to keep my mind occupied, and hoping i can earn enough to provide u with a good life ahead. With only $700 in my bank account... I know i will not make it to provide for u. I wanna be with u forever. I LOVE u dear dear

12:51 AM;

{Sunday, March 06, 2011}

We are from different world?
Ouch....

Is that supposed to mean something?

I hold on.
Knowing that i cant change the world we had before.
I will surely make the world ahead of us the best of all.

10:55 AM;

{Tuesday, October 05, 2010}

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11:40 PM;

{Saturday, July 31, 2010}

Well i am here again to make myself feel better.

I don have anyone to talk to so i am talking to myself again.


I am scared. Afraid that i will lose her.
People says that girlfriend tends to run away during NS.
I can see she is trying to prevent it.
But i am afraid. Uni life will change everything.

I wanna prevent it too. I spend as much time as i can with her. Saturdays Sundays. Everyday if possible. But i am still afraid, that i cant capture her heart. I am always assured by her. But also crushed by her. I have no one to help me. No one to talk to. Where is that Jeff Kwek when i need him. I cant always sms him. I wanna meet up with him. But then i will spend the time with her.

I think i am not spending enough time with her. She told me i must meet up with my friends. But when i do, she crushes me. So i am not sure if it's my time management? Or is it my life that is wrong. 7th Aug is nxt week. Meiling planned a meeting. But what do u think? Sld i go? I don wanna go. But if i tell her. She will ask me to go.

We are stuck at this "Stage" for very long already. As i talked to Meal IC that day, I am very afraid that what he said will come true. We are not moving on. When something new comes up in her life, things might change, i might not catch up, and i will be out of the game. I though i will be strong enough. But i know deep inside, i am weak... Weak like no one can ever imagine.


Somebody tell me what to do. And Pls i need it to be the right way cause i cant lose someone so dear to me. Thank you, i need a pat on my back.

11:40 PM;

{Friday, April 16, 2010}

I don know what to do...


Katy Perry Hot 'N Cold

What Do You Want From Me - Adam Lambert


Thats what i feeling man...
I doing everything i can.
Everything i can already.
Everything i do
Everything is wrong.

I sld do nothing?
Say nothing.
Have nothing.
Be nothing.

I am nobody.

8:13 PM;

{Saturday, February 27, 2010}

I don know why...

Why?

Is it my fault?

But i didnt know...

Why am i always not knowing anything...




I don know why...

Why am i treated like that...

I feel like i am not good enough...

No matter how much assurance there is...

It is always gone.

So much that the assurance... No longer...





I am not good enough... Never have been

11:54 PM;

{Tuesday, February 09, 2010}

Sometimes...

Its me... I think its just me... Must i really do it?
Should i be not that nice?

Fucking pussy guy i am...

11:17 PM;


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Desmond Lim Siong Lin
19 years old
Astrological Sign: Scorpio
Hobbies and Interests: BaDmInToN, GaMiNg .. Actually... THats all
Favorite Music: MoHeCaNs, sAmMi...


I am very talkative...
Very friendy...
But not very good at girls... Thats the worst thing...


I like badminton a lot.
Started learning from my brother's father since K1... Even though i still sux at it... i sux in a lot of thing...


Well i also like ART cause my sister's Mother taugh me art since i was very young too...But i also sux in art... CAuse i draw very very very slow Haiz...


I love fishes...Got quite a lot of fishes at home...A big one (gone when he was 18years old) and some small small ones...HahA... Nothing More abt me liao...


One more thing...
I am a very boring person...Sniff Sniff...

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-More and More Shorts!!
-Be with that little someone
-Able to pass my course now
-Have my hair grown back ASAP
-TATTOO My Chinese Name
-Sleep Well


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